Saturday, May 12, 2007 - That Empty Space :

Reason why I created a blog on impulse is that I suddenly have this “statement”, this feeling that I starting to live a scheduled life… No, actually, most of the recent years, my life is more or less fixed as a “To-Do-List”. Life just feels empty… An empty space tryin to get filled.

Thinkin back, I’ve never really escape my monotonous lifestyle:

1) Sem starts = MUG MUG MUG!!!
2) Hols = Time to TRY and get a job, FITNESS, meet up with friends back on hols.
3) End of story

Majority of my good friends are all overseas, those “based locally” are mainly intertwined with “my past”. In other words, I’VE NO-ONE ELSE to really haf a heart felt conversation with anymore.

Army made me keep things to myself, nvr let my family noe anything at all now a days, prefer to handle it alone. But, some times, people tend to get lost… Losing sight of one’s goal….

As a result, I always like being a “gorgor” in my clique. Cause around them, I can “guide them” with my experience. I feel that if I’ve gone thru the shit tt I’ve gone thru, I dun see why someone else shld go thru it as well. If you’re not given the love (probably also cause I shut myself out), why not give someone the love?


P.S.: Dun need to understand anything I posted up on the blog, it’s an act of impulse, I dun plan my thoughts (something not found in my monotonous life)

tDr3@mZ blogged at 11:53 PM