Sunday, May 27, 2007 - FOC Trial I… :

Today we tried out the changi beach games and the fright night. Well, actually I didn’t really play coz when I reach there it was already my station games, so just run the games and help out with other stations.

During the evening, we did the fright night run thru. I’m supposed to hide under the bed in the “Mortuary” waiting to grab ppl’s legs and scream at their face when they look for clues. Jas was super good lah! Last FOC she super scared, now back wif a vengeance: scare the hell out of ppl with her scream… heehee

Anyway, she just came back from Germany on Friday. She went for the beach games in the afternoon, so managed to see her for a while. Miss her so badly when she’s abroad for the past 2 weeks, but when I get to see her today, just dun feel right. She just in front of me, but then, she just seems so far… So out of reach…

Just feel very sad.

Maybe she’s simply out of reach, she won’t accept me… She won’t marry a non Christian nor a xxxxxx.
Maybe coz the ppl ard me juz keep suaning me and it ain’t wad I want… Just want her to accept the way I am, and not be affected by the ppl ard us and so i distant away from her…

Guess I made the wrong move; guess I fell in love with the wrong person (~again)

tDr3@mZ blogged at 11:56 PM

Saturday, May 12, 2007 - That Empty Space :

Reason why I created a blog on impulse is that I suddenly have this “statement”, this feeling that I starting to live a scheduled life… No, actually, most of the recent years, my life is more or less fixed as a “To-Do-List”. Life just feels empty… An empty space tryin to get filled.

Thinkin back, I’ve never really escape my monotonous lifestyle:

1) Sem starts = MUG MUG MUG!!!
2) Hols = Time to TRY and get a job, FITNESS, meet up with friends back on hols.
3) End of story

Majority of my good friends are all overseas, those “based locally” are mainly intertwined with “my past”. In other words, I’VE NO-ONE ELSE to really haf a heart felt conversation with anymore.

Army made me keep things to myself, nvr let my family noe anything at all now a days, prefer to handle it alone. But, some times, people tend to get lost… Losing sight of one’s goal….

As a result, I always like being a “gorgor” in my clique. Cause around them, I can “guide them” with my experience. I feel that if I’ve gone thru the shit tt I’ve gone thru, I dun see why someone else shld go thru it as well. If you’re not given the love (probably also cause I shut myself out), why not give someone the love?


P.S.: Dun need to understand anything I posted up on the blog, it’s an act of impulse, I dun plan my thoughts (something not found in my monotonous life)

tDr3@mZ blogged at 11:53 PM

- Welcome to my thoughts :

I’m a person who dreads to start blogging coz I always prefer to keep it up in the head… But nowadays, not enuf memory space up there le lah, time to free up a couple of GBs of space for then next sem.

Here I am, starting on a blogger’s life…

Welcome to my thoughts………………….

tDr3@mZ blogged at 11:51 PM